Busy Busy!

Well these last few days have been really busy and I don't seem to have had much time to sleep either (not good by the way!).

I've been working on a new website commission and have spent some time getting things together with that. Also been helping another client with their existing website too. In between that, I've been doing housework and spending time with the family and kids.

Up until a few hours ago I felt great. I felt life was good and I had a really positive outlook on things. Then my wife went to work and I became the sole guardian of our children for the night. Normally this isn't a problem, but tonight it seems as if Satan himself has possessed both of my kids!

The fun started when my youngest, my daughter, decided it would be fun not to eat her dinner, but instead to smear some of it on the floor and sofa and throw the remainder across the room. Fun for her perhaps, but not so fun for me who had to clean it up. Next my son thought it would be fun to give me a load of cheek, so he was promptly told off and sent to his room to ponder his actions.

After a little while I let him return downstairs where the pair of them messed around until it was bath time. The fun stepped up a gear when my daughter decided to pour a pint glass full of water all over the floor whilst I had my back turned and putting towels away. Needless to say, I saw my backside and got her out of the bath and straight to bed (she wasn't too happy with this!).

She has been shouting at the top of her voice from her bedroom for at least an hour, so I've given in and brought her downstairs. A sachet of calpol and Peppa Pig on the TV has seemed to temporarily subdued her!

Its evenings like this where I could really just reach for some crappy food and eat until I felt sick! Food is my coping mechanism. Bad, I know, but its how I've dealt with things forever and its responsible for me being the way I am. Having the strength to stop in my tracks and decide not to eat that piece of chocolate, or scoff that pack of doughnuts, or devour that piece of cake will define my future self. Unfortunately, right now and in times of stress, that strength is actually pretty weak and habit takes over.

Thankfully this time I had willpower on my side and refrained from eating junk food. To me, this was a big achievement! I hope that I'll be able to keep up this will power and motivation to help me reach my goals!